This is the story of my new sketchbook for my self-exploration mandala journey.
I ordered a very nice Stillman and Birn Zeta Series A4 Hardbound Sketchbook which I decided I wanted to personalized as I've done before.
This morning a drew a mandala on its cover, using my usual technique of dip pen and acrylic ink.
Normally, after drawing on a book cover, I apply a layer or two of Acrylic Matte Medium to protect my mandala. I was very impatient to finish so I used a hair dryer to speed up the process. It wasn't enough, it wasn't completely dry, I should have waited...
When I applied the acrylic medium the white ink went all over the place.
I ruined it...
After many failed attempts to fix it, including covering it with white acrylic paint, then black acrylic paint, I started to remove all the layers with sand paper.
Slowly, my mandala started to appear like a lost buried ancient treasure.
It reminded me of the process I'm embarking on, my journey of self discovery through The Great Round of the Mandala.
The process is the same, its excavating what is hidden in my unconscious, like removing layers I've been applying through out my life, may be to protect myself...
There will be beautiful things, not so beautiful things and ugly things. They are all part of me, they are the whole, they are MY SELF... They are the treasure...
With much love and care I cleaned it and drew the lines and dots again.
I embrace my journal as it is now, as I embrace my self, I embrace the beauty and the beast.